loosing grip from her?

i was sitting there alone without any disturbances. "he is cute when he sleeps like that," i thought in my mind. again, am i crushing on someone? it is really impossible because i'm not into boys right now. i took my mobile to check if any messages or calls retrieved. i saw her name in my missed call list. i was just about to text her but she stood in front of me before i get to text her. she said she wanted to have a private conversation with me. at that moment, i was only thinking will this conversation leads to any kind of goodness in the future? if not, i rather keep my mouth shut and let her do the talk. i wouldn't want to tear her heart apart. i know, my words are as sharp as a sword sometimes. but, she kept asking me and i was forced to answer. i tried to pick up words that have mild meanings but understandable. she seemed confused but what more can i say? i am loosing a friendship grip from her. it slipped away long time ago. one thing that is sure, we can still be friends now and forever. i love her as much as i did before...