ATTENTION!

Alright, now I'm going to reveal that I've a new blog. If you feel like reading it, please feel free to visit :

www.thecomplicatedira.blogspot.com

But, I need to warn you guys that I'm free to write anything that I like. Do not 'serang' me for things that I post. For once, I need a space to scribble anything that I like. With that, I thank you. (:

-I am complicated-

interesting?

well well well... i'm tired typing about love because truthfully, i still haven't found one. sad to say but maybe guys my age find me wierd. yeah yeah. almost all malay guys want a cute, 'manja' in sense of attitude and polite malay girl. i'm definately out of the list! i'm more to not being hipocrit by being myself. guys hate me? hell i don't care! *hahha* nevermind, i don't really mind to be loved by a guy right now. but, i really care about friendship. haih! any interesting story about friends around me? yup! there're several...

as i walked into radical group early of this semester, i realised that i missed a lot of things that happen among my classmates. so, i'd tried to catch up and i managed to be on the right track back. but, since then, many things have happened. love, friendship and conflict are all blend into a mixture of life. now, back to the main thing, friendship. what is actually a friendship all about? a friendship can only be called friendship if it has trust, care, love and loyal. all these elements are important because you can only be loyal if you care or love the person. but, you can only care or love when you trust the person. hence, trust the friendship that you've built so that you will care, love and then loyal towards your friends.

is a friend important in life? it depends to people's perspective. but, i do think that friends are important in some occassions. some people may lead a life without others because they are the loner type. but still, once in a moonlight, they will need help from another person. for me, my friends would be there for me when i'm devastated or frustrated. our family wouldn't be there all the time. we have our own legs to stand on our own. along the way, friends will always help us when we fall on the ground. they'll be laughing at us but they'll give their hand and pull us to stand up again. it is just the matter of choosing the right friends, trusting them and being by their side whenever needed. and, to whom in love, always remember that love can fade away but friendship will never fade away...

-never loose a friend because of another friend-

thank you (:

guys, thank you for reading my blog. i have some problems with the internet at 'beloved' mawar. so, i can't give any responses on your comments as for now. so, this post is dedicated for you guys who read my blog. THANK YOU!

-reading needs passion and patience-

scandal?

i had a long weekend holiday because of the 'thaipusam' celebration. so, when i came back to my 'beloved' college yesterday, i heard stories about cars, people and SCANDAL! i'm going to dedicate this post to mr.playboy and miss raziah.

here the story goes...

not a long time ago, PI020 D was shocked with the news or fact that mr.playboy and mrs.intec were a lovebird. prove? isn't necessary because almost everyone in PI020 D knew about it. they were paying each other's meal during dinner, texting each other eventhough the fact that they were in the same class and going to meet almost every single day. but, the power of love is unbreakable. *sigh* the world knew that there were something happening between them but they remained silent until...

miss raziah appeared in mr.playboy's life. it happened a moment after mrs.intec and mr.playboy keeping distance from each other. why? only they know the real story but they don't want to reveal it. so, in mr.playboy's life, he opened a new love story and it involved miss raziah. is the love story caused by infatuation? i hope not because the glory of love isn't real when falling in love with a person that we meet everyday. day after day, mr.playboy and miss raziah seem comfortable showing their relationship in public. what more can people say? they are like brother and sister? *sigh* no, they are trully, madly and deeply involved in love.

to mr.playboy, you may say that you aren't a playboy but people surrounding you see differently from you. (:

to miss raziah, you should start praying that your relationship with mr.playboy lasts longer compare to mrs.intec and mr.playboy. *sigh* i'm joking!

-love is beautiful if we understand the meaning of love-

dedicated to papa

for months i've been keeping my distance with you, pa. but believe me, i have reasons for why i do that. it started with all the missunderstanding when i stayed with you after spm. no worries pa, your eldest daughter never have the shame feeling towards you. i know my mistakes are speechless but nobody is perfect. even you were having your love story with aunty yanie before you marry her. but, i never judge you in any ways because you were a great father to me. you were everything to me and i never felt that towards ma before. now, when she picked me up after being 'dumped' by you, she is everthing to me. should i tell everyone that the 'nafkah' you give me monthly is never enough? but i'm greatful and i live with what i have. i never questioned your credibility as a father because you are simply good. nobody can be like you. you are one in a million, honestly. the reason i type this post is for you to know that i can't accept the fact that you are now someone's husband. you are not mine anymore. i'm selfish and i can't share someone i loved so much with a stranger. FYI, i don't need to share ma with uncle because he comes to ma as a weekend husband. uncle is totally an open-minded person. he has no problem if ma wants to have a day with her children without uncle. but aunty will haunt me by being with us [family] wherever we go. our weekends will never be the same because of aunty. it is not fair for me to get rid of her from your life because for you, she is everything. with full respect, i step away from your life just to avoid feeling sad. this is the truth...

-letting go of someone we love is not easy-

confused?!

i've been pushed by peeps surrounding me to post a blog. so, i'm here to type something about you. read it and pretend to understand. *sigh*

there has been some misunderstanding between some people. currently, my status as the member of 'Spice Girls' is undetermined. it is because i've been busy with another group named 'Scandalness Group'. well, we have mr.playboy and miss raziah in the group. we have mr.masscom and miss heartless and not to forget, mr.loveless and miss ifa. for sure i will never forget the members of 'Spice Girls', mrs.ronaldo, mrs.abangZ, mrs.intec and miss korean. these days, the 'Spice Girls' seldom hang out with the 'Scandalness Group'. so, i've been in dilemma to choose between those groups. me myself was in the 'Spice Girls' and right now i'm involved in the 'Scandalness Group'. what should i do?! i'm confused...

-life is not real without obstacles-

loosing grip from her?

i was sitting there alone without any disturbances. "he is cute when he sleeps like that," i thought in my mind. again, am i crushing on someone? it is really impossible because i'm not into boys right now. i took my mobile to check if any messages or calls retrieved. i saw her name in my missed call list. i was just about to text her but she stood in front of me before i get to text her. she said she wanted to have a private conversation with me. at that moment, i was only thinking will this conversation leads to any kind of goodness in the future? if not, i rather keep my mouth shut and let her do the talk. i wouldn't want to tear her heart apart. i know, my words are as sharp as a sword sometimes. but, she kept asking me and i was forced to answer. i tried to pick up words that have mild meanings but understandable. she seemed confused but what more can i say? i am loosing a friendship grip from her. it slipped away long time ago. one thing that is sure, we can still be friends now and forever. i love her as much as i did before...

updated already.

sorry folks. out for days because of fever. hurul, i guess it came from you and it was pretty bad. it's okay. i'm a fighter! *peace*

p/s: wait for the next post. it'll be more interesting to read. (:

imitating AJ?

nope. this post is not an imitation but i'm trying to do something interesting without using bombastic words like AJ does. he's superb in what he is doing. *sigh* i'm just putting my feet into something new. *hahha* so, let the story begins...

early in the morning, after i did my brushing thingy at toilet, i texted mr.playboy. [he's not the real playboy but he claims to fame. *agagaga*] well, after replying each others text, we decided to prepare to go to the most famous shopping complex that you have never been before which is jusco klang. [sorry ayden, i took your sentence. *ngee*] after battling in front of the mirror, i rushed to have my healthy way of breakfast. eating rapidly and hungrily until i'm full of wholegrain in my stomach. whenever i'm full, i'll be childishly happy. i saw mrs.hafizi was having her sweet time in front of the mirror. she isn't like me when it comes to mirror thingy. she's cool and fast. [tudung thing lahh!] suddenly, miss raziah came into my room, accompanied by miss heartless and mrs.abangZ. they were perfectly and cutely make-up. girls' stuff are not my blood, at all! around 10am or more we went to the freaking mawar bus stop. people are like hell when the bus arrived. there will be lots of pushing, cursing and making ugly faces just to enter the bus. after ages waiting for the freaking bus to arrive, we saw the 603 bus and for sure everyone including the five of us rushed to the bus. i bet the bus driver is used to the hell situation at mawar bus stop. as ususal, mrs.hafizi, miss raziah, miss heartless, mrs.abangZ and me did well to enter the bus. *sigh* we've been training for the hell situation since our first semester of asasi TESL.

i saw mr.loveless with his orange reddish shirt and funny flip-flop. the six of us went to hijazi to have some food. i planned to drink 'pull tea' because i had my breakfast already. poor mr.loveless, mr and mrs.kering were having their romantic breakfast together at hijazi. [why kering? refer to both of their blog.] we ambushed them and asked about mrs.apek's condition. she seemed sick but i'm not sure if the acting lesson during drama class was good. *hahha* the breakfast was good. ouh! i forgot to mention that we met mr.playboy and mr.masscom at hijazi. after that, the eight of us were so eager to go to klang.

arriving at the heart of klang is like the second stage of hell. vehicles were everywhere and we had some pig time to search for the bus to jusco klang. at first, we planned to go to jusco bukit raja. but, after stopping in front of the cute bus that shows jusco bukit tinggi, we changed our mind. the bus is way better than the mini bus to our faculty but still, we are fine with any kind of public transports. the journey in the bus was fine. we arrived at jusco bukit tinggi around noon. arriving there was like arriving at mrs.abangZ's mansion, according to her. [she's rich by the way.] jusco bukit tinggi, here we come!

here comes the best part...

i cannot imagine how can love suddenly appear between mr.playboy and miss raziah but it does. they were like two lovely birds. err... but one of the birds is 180cm in height. the other bird is 39kg or less in weight. still, they are cute to be a couple. am i right mrs.hafizi? *ngee* they were hugging each other, holding each other's hand and being sarcasticly romantic whenever they could. i saw miss heartless's sad face but i'm really bad with words especially words to make people happier. so, i kept quite because my dato' K was sitting for his arabic examination. talking about dato' K, i don't think i have a future with him. he's in his own fantasy world and my bet is, he's waiting for someone else. its ok with me because mama taught me that i should my best first in things that i am good at which is being myself. *hahha* [ina, aku pon tade jiwa lahh.] mr.playboy and miss raziah were pamperly fighting over lunch. i bet it was about finishing food issue. mr.playboy is freaking fussy when miss raziah could not finish up her food. huh! typical malay man will always be so fussy with all the little things. but, when it comes to marrying more than one woman, it is ok. [btol kn pa? aunty yanie mst stuju jgk. *sigh* sorry pa!] from lunch to watching bedtime stories, mr.playboy and miss raziah will always be together. so sweet!

our journey didn't end at jusco bukit tinggi. we went to PAS because miss heartless wanted to find a cheap mobile but she changed her mind last minute. still, we went to PAS and played bowling. BOO BOWLING AT PAS! it is like hell because the maintanance was freaking slow. after swinging some bowling balls, we went for some arcade games. me and mr.loveless played basketball arcade like crazy. we ended up sweating as if we were playing the real one. it is fun! we decided to dinner at kfc. after loading our stomach, we went to seksyen 2 by walking. there the lovebirds strucked each other again. they were holding hands and walked behind us. mr.masscom, mrs.hafizi, miss heartless, mrs.abangZ and me sang love songs just to heat up the night. but, we got interupted by mr.loveless's harsh voice. still, we were singing like crazy. [kn hurul? trcungap2 nynyi.*hahha*]

the day ended up perfectly tired. don't think the girls' day has ended. we continued the night with gossiping about miss troublesome and her demands. well, for me, the day ended up perfect because they were all being happy without spending a lot of money. i slept with a smile...

p/s : i'm new, so do comments on my post. AJ, i am not imitating you. just trying to open up my horizon. *ngee*

again;mumtaz

mumtaz... want to meet you so much! missing you like hell.