life is easy?

who says life is easy? i would be the first one to deny that fact. life is not easy, at all! right now, i'm going through a tough time in my life. i know, in the future there will be more tougher time. but sometimes, i feel commit suicide is the only solution. ASTAGHFIRULLAH! but, that is the truth. life is like driving a car on a road. we overtake a car in front, there are still cars to overtake after that. life is always about solving problems. after a problem being solved, another problem being served to us. like it or not, solve it. we can't always rely on people. when you die, we are not sharing the grave together. [like i want!]

i'm eighteen and nineteen is just around the corner. problems that i need to overcome are more than my age. family, friends, attitude, feelings, bla bla bla. but still, i'm coping with all the problems. professionally? sometimes. i'm the person that you don't want to meet when i'm mad or sad. i'll be the cruel one. WTF? like i care if people's feelings are hurting at that moment. but, life is not all about me. but i remember, what goes around comes back around. do nice nice things to people even though they do sucks on me. because i believe in the day hereafter.

p/s : i'm a muslim. JIHAD!